Violence is the Answer?

  It's finally time for me to realise that I am really too violent for my own good. Although I do like to imply that unless we're real tight I won't attempt to hit/kick you, still, it's time to act more like a... tame creature.

  Today upon finding out how mum's being all nasty about K-Fest I slammed my door, threw my tablet pen down on my table, nearly pushed my spinny chair over and kicked the bed a few times. Not the first time this happened trust me. My laptop was too laggy and I always tend to smash it, explains why it's so crappy now, LOL. I think my mouse broke because I smashed it out of rage when blogger refused to save as well.

  So anyway, my violence is getting me into so much deep shit! Maybe I really need to go buy me some chill pills. TKD ain't helping much either when the only way we solve problems there is via a round of kicking. Half of the shit in my room are probably broken, dammit.

  Oh yeah any ideas on what to give Nifky for her Bday? I wanna get her stuff in china but it's before china... wehh!

China Plannin'

  OMG I have so much stuff I want, I'll probably(definitely) end up with a huge suitcase filled to the brim. And that is if I am actually allowed to shop there because Asian parents are stingy even in their own country.

  Stuff I want/need: New headphones, x2 new earphones, mouse, iPod dock, COD and other PS3 games, a shitload of Kpop merchandise, manga, clothing(shorts, blouses and one-pieces, also need swimwear), accessories, stationery, heaps of food, a new USB, lunchbox, gifts for bdays, a backpack, circle contact lenses, new glasses, sunnies, polaroid camera, hopefully a new computer.

  I literally need the stuff to last me the next 3 years. Yet still have enough money for K-Fest.

  Can't I just bring the entire of China back with me :(?

I only asked for Chips...

  It all started off with me telling mum that I'm craving for chips.

  Note that she banned chips in the house and I haven't had a decent packet in years.

  It ended off with both my parents educating me on the law and social justice system because apparently I'm breaking it.

  Parents are weird.

  I believe adults aren't always right, and I'm not saying that children/young adults are, just that nobody is always right. Mebbeh Jesus? But he technically ain't all human either.

  Adults think they're always right and therefore has the right to accuse me and tell me what I'M thinking when nobody can tell what anyone's thinking, you can't just make false accusations on what others are thinking or what others did because that's what you think and you're always supposedly right. That's just really... up yourself. I ain't making much sense now.

  I did learn a lesson though, never engage in any conversation with your parents or you risk getting scolded, every time for the most random-est reasons. And probably not to talk alot like I usually do, talking is always a bad thing.

  I should totally just do a 180 degrees personality turnaround and stop talking altogether, like Lucy when she's depressed.

  Here's a picture of my matching(broken) shit I was talking about, I shall go get a replacement for all three.

A bit of Everything

  Today when I tried to type a long-ass blog stupid Blogger decided to delete it all so I had to start again. And speaking of starting again I changed my layout! I'm going to lay off the black theme I usually stick to for a while.

  I get real jelly of couples sometimes. Not those ones who suck eachother's faces off in public but those couples who act more like biffles than like they're going out. Everywhere I look there's a cute couple somewhere and I just feel nerghhh. Everywhere I see 'in a relationship' statuses and I feel more nerghhh. Although, I can't bear to think about the last time I agreed to go out with someone *shudders*. Can't risk getting so sick I'm on my deathbed again can I?

  Trig test was weird... As usual I crammed everything I failed to learn in class down 2 days before the test, luckily this time oppa helped me (unlike you other lazy offline pooheads) and although I nearly used sin in my cosine rule it was all good. Trig turned out to be easier than I thought. Anyway, Ms D being the nice person that she is decided to split the test into 2 periods so we all cheated, obviously. And if that wasn't bad enough she said we can go back and CORRECT the ones she marked wrong, and she ended up telling me the answers to one of the questions I nearly got wrong. I love her and all but isn't this too... lenient?

  Speaking of oppa, someone texted me using his phone today and we had a short but interesting conversation about unicorns. Well, more like how that person is a hairy phat unicorn who poos out rainbows for children to play in. It's so funny when your friends' phone gets nicked and the person texts everyone on the contact book really weird messages. Which reminds me at lunch today we played a counter game counting Squishy's hairflips and he didn't notice what we were going on about extremely obviously, until the very end, that is.

  I don't like anonymous people. Both the trolls and the smartasses acting like they're so mature and they know everything when it's really obvious who they are IRL. Maturity-wise, going anonymous basically deems you unworthy of that word. Being anonymous means you're too wussed out to reveal your real identity. I remember being called a bitchy hypocrite BY a bitchy hypocrite on Formspring. I also remember someone extremely obviously trolling us on tinychat when we all kind of guessed who that person maybe.

  And also people who hold grudges, if you think someone's still holding a grudge against you  then ignore it. Wise people forgive and forget. Unless you're really super at fault and really acted like a bish then sorry bro your loss, try apologising mebbeh? Just remember that if the other person fails to let the thing blow-over then it's no longer your problem, but theirs. As long as you treat them nicely and genuinely, if they don't do the same back then WHO'S THE BISH NAO?

  Oh, sorry for the long blog, if you read up to here then WHOA you can marry me ;D

Look not Once, but Twice

  First things first, I drew the third part of Adventures of Herpewoman today, it's a spin-off about the life of Chlamydia man. But he ends up getting rejected. Herpe you can read it during Science on Monday :D

  Where the hell are my red pens? I recently misplaced my old one, so I replaced it right, then I immediately lost the new one as well. I don't even recall using it anywhere! how annoying! And life without a mouse is irritating, sure my tablet's all cool but some things have to be done with a mouse!

  Youth was fun! I swear I'm gonna have a seizure if I stayed any longer. The glow-sticks and flashing lights were blinding, my poor eyesight. Had an intense D&M session with Jess; like by intense I mean INTENSE, as intense as the reaction he'd get if I glomped him.

  I wonder if I am as important to him as he is important to me. I don't like it when he takes my friendship for granted. I expected something in return. Perhaps he would initiate conversations and such first it would be much appreciated. Unlike him, I don't care about what the other people think; a proud fangirl stays proud; they can say what they like. Although they all think I like him or something, which I don't but sometimes it's just so hard to convince people ya'know? I love Cheondung, but I'm not going to marry him for real! Same deal!

Third Time Lucky

  As opposed to my original purpose of ranting about how my stepdad's such a bitch, how I got accepted for the Ski Job but never got a shift and how I'm still failing my back hook kicks in TKD, I will rant about something else.

  The title is so damn irrelevant! Anyway; 7-10 Director's project is all done and looking back I'm proud of my little Year 7 children. I sound so old now; it only felt like yesterday when i first graduated from Primary school and stepped into High School. How nostalgic. This is one of those moments when I want to stroke my imaginary beard.

  Don't you hate people who thinks the whole world revolves around them? The ones who never consider what the other people feels about the situation. I used to be like that; I probably still am but I'm trying not to. I'm obviously not pointing at anyone in particular here, just those people in general. I kind of thought about it after watching this Asian Reality Dating Show. Anyhow, I hate how those people act like you can't piss them off one bit and have to live to please them. How they're annoyed and think we want their attention so badly and stalk them around. It's like, don't everyone have their own issues to worry about, issues completely unrelated to you?

  Speaking of issues, I also hate how crammed up the school schedule is! Every test is squished into one week, all assignments due on the same day and after these 'peak hours' we get no homework at all and have to be bored all the time. I hate how the teachers realise it as well, but never make an effort to correct it. I was so busy yesterday and the night before doing homework and today I felt like there's nothing to do!

  I cut my hand during drama, and I realised how cool a bandaid can make you look. I swear I'm going to put one on my face one day and act like I got into a fist fight, that would be awesome. But on the downside mum still made me wash my pants and she watched me handling it with difficulty. I thought she'd tell me to stop and leave it to her, ah well, that's my family to you. They just don't care about your wellbeing.

  What else? Oh yeah, I can't wait till China! But gotta go through yearlies first, unfortunately.

Take a Deep Breath and CHILLAX

  I hate that word actually, it sounded funny rolling off my tongue, but everyone else uses it so much I've learnt to cope with it. Same with others like 'Calm your Farms' and 'Take a Chill Pill'. Mainly because everyone uses it on me so much it got annoying, LOL.

  I hate how unphotogenic I am ): Like when people take a photo without me looking or me purposefully trying to smile nicely although on the inside I just want to wear a deep scowl. It ends up with either me in the middle of a yawn or looking like a zombie with half-lidded eyes, fat cheeks and yellow skin or a wrinkly forehead (perhaps I'd look WORSE than a zombie). Then I thought about trying makeup, but I'll probably end up looking like a stripper. Plus I'd rub my eyes really hard and screw up the eye-powder things or scratch my face and wreck the face-powder things.

  A shout out to my awesome lazy supervisor for my awkward dodgy unpaid training session at a store I'd hope to work in. You're so 'funny', 'enthusiastic' and 'hardworking'. Note the sarcasm; but you're still awesome :) The pay there is really boss and I am really hoping, fingers crossed (although most of the time this doesn't work for me) that I'd get the job. YAAAADAAAAA! Coles is on Monday, I need to be prepared to boss around old experienced people in order to show 'leadership skills'.

  I really am craving for cake. Me wants some so muchy. I remember craving for it even when I'm sick as hell in bed. I ended up nomming down half a cake-log but after that I'm lucky it didn't come back out. Fevers suck. Anyhow bring me some cake sometime will ya?! Save the poor girl from her cravings!

  Carllu, you're wrong. HE WAS DRINKING! Finger-waves are awesome! Don't deny its powah and wuv! And I am hoping that both of you can read the following... GET A ROOM! I had to take in your gross... touchings and my fever at the same time! I swear if it weren't for the previous finger-wave I would have died right there!

Can I liek U?

  Okay this is going to sound so weird and pathetic coming from me but... *deep breath* I AM SUFFERING HERE.

  Recently as I hop down the staircase greeting a new day I am instead met with 4 couples doing who-knows-what to eachother and there I am, standing in the middle not knowing what to say or do. Either way whoever I talk to I become a third wheel. Seriously people, GET A ROOM! God! I want to not puke my breakfast here!

  Then I'd stand there awkwardly in a little circle with VivvyIzzyAliceLizzy trying to act normal and ignore what's going on around us. But even then it's weird because it's like getting surrounded on a 10v1 team deathmatch and you're left with only a knife to defend yourself while everyone else has full-automatic weapons, full ammo and truckloads of grenades. AWKWARD!

  I need a crush liek... NAO! So I can go chase after him and not go through the same torture I go through every freaking morning. Sure I fangirl over heaps of people as it is, but just because you fangirl over someone doesn't mean it's a crush and you get that weird chest doing a disco feeling... DOKI DOKI DOKI DOKI. I kinda miss that feeling, last time was back in year 8. How nostalgic.

  Great, and now formal is coming soon and I have no idea who I'd ask without them thinking that I like them or something. Not that I have absolutely nobody available for asking (sounds like speed dating or smth ARGH) but it's just so URGHHHHHH. If Reo lived in Sydney I'd take him and he'll just troll everyone LOLOLOL.

  Mr. Hot Guy, come find me NOW NOW NOW NOW NOW and put me out of my misery.

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Careers and OHSHIT DID YOU JUST SAY...?

MBLAQ IS COMING TO K-FEST!
MBLAQ IS COMING TO K-FEST!
MBLAQ IS COMING TO K-FEST!
MBLAQ IS COMING TO K-FEST!
MBLAQ IS COMING TO K-FEST!



  I can picture it in my head already, first comes the first sighting of Cheondung at the airport, then I'll stalk him and get him to autograph and take heaps of photos with him and then force him to marry me LOLOL, ok the last part was definitely a joke.

  Now I've just got to worry about the tickets, they're not THAT expensive; but for a jobless broke person like me $200 is still ALOTTA money for VIP. And not going as VIP kinda defeats the point doesn't it? Besides all my friends are going as VIPs... I have to go! Even if it means going busking and begging for money >_>

  Speaking of money, YES I got a call/textback from Coles and they invited me to a group interview! I've never been to a group interview before and I'm really scared I'd be going against old, experienced people. I'm going home early from school (at lunch!) to attend as well! Long story really, first when I applied and it didn't send, therefore forfeited me and all the positions were filled up and I was really depressed and shitty-feeling. Then this morning one vacancy miraculously appeared so I instantly snatched Lucy's laptop and booked it, BAM all I need to do is memorise everything about the company, and wait for Monday...

  So... what to wear? They can't possibly expect a high-school kid like me to be in my 'Business Suit' can they? I'm thinking of a white shirt (borrowed from mum), a vest, and black suit pants (thanks mum) and flats. It's totally gonna make me look old. Plus the question of whether I even OWN these clothing is... err... questionable.

When Things Break...

  Don't you hate it when your stuff dies? 3 of my most precious devices died this week and I think I died a little bit on the inside as well.

  First my mouse, it was alright before, then the battery ran out but when I replaced it, it wouldn't work! You can't just 'suddenly not work'! You need to at least show symptoms!

  Then my iTunes subsequently decided to give me trouble. I want to dedicate this blog as a semi-hateblog for Apple because they suck. Not only did our friend iTunes here screw up my entire music library and their corresponding album covers, it also made my harddrive 'tidy'. I stayed up until 3 fixing it, and it was frustrating as hell. Apple, you suck. First you make the majority of my songs automatically skip themselves, then you give me problems with my album art, then you delete my entire library with an accidental click, then you duplicate everything when I re-sync my files, and after that? You just have to fuck up all my folders and make me sort them all over again. So I was like HEY let's troll their complaint center and then guess what? THEY DON'T FREAKING HAVE A COMPLAINT CENTER, my guess is they're scared people like me will swarm it with hatemail.

  And then finally today, my earphones suddenly stopped working on the left ear. I loved those earphones to death and it saddened me alot to let it go. Now I'm using those crappy Apple *insert hate here* earphones with my dad's earwax on them and the rubber bits all torned up by his ears *insert hate for dad's hygiene here, I warned him to be extra-careful with those! Costed a fortune!*. I obviously cleaned it up, but it looked really crappy and the sound quality sucks.

  So yeah, I'm sad and my rant ends here. I remember my earphones, mouse and headphones all being the same, shiny metallic red colour, RIP my precious. And dad, stop being a douche already and go apologise to mum for being the ignorant bastard that you are, and next time do as I say and stop stuffing earphones into your ear like they're cotton buds, disgusting.

  Oh right BTW, I'm finally going back to China next holidays! I haven't been since year 6 so this is exciting! This be the only good news, kthxbai.

Hi Mr. Douchebag

  Recently my dad's been just a bit over, he complains about me 24/7 and his moodswings are getting really annoying. And sometimes when he's angry he screams at my mum for the littlest of things. I can literally see a divorce coming... again. Mum's been giving me all this weird talk about never wanting to get married again and if I can manage life without my stepdad, hell yeah I can. With mum even if she does throw tantrums at me I can throw one back at her and we remain in stalemate until we sleep it off; with dad he just disowns me right away and smashes things when he gets pissed.

  Today I had all this choc left over from 7-10 Directors, I was like HEY Imma bringing this to Theatresports to share. Then Roslyn asked for some and when I was taking it out to give to her(and later the entire grade) I was bombarded everyone whom just ambushed me and snapped bits of the chocolate block off and disappearing into the crowds of people. By the time I squeezed my way out of this crowd, the full block turned into an empty box, so I was like OMG just take the rest and shoved it into someone's hands. I dunno, I wasn't too happy about my food getting scabbed when I didn't even get to eat any, call me greedy but I did end up starving after Theatresports. Lesson learnt, don't bring copious amounts of food outside in the corridors; and if you randomly scab food off Selena again leaving her nothing to eat be prepared to have your neck snapped.

  Something did bother me however, this girl, no names mentioned but she's Asian(get the ambiguity, LOL). She was glaring at me the entire time I was attacked by our grade, then she walked up to me, snapped a block for herself and rolled her eyes at me before walking away. I'm all over the chocolate business now, at least I made half my grade happy and they were quite thankful(although not quite... considerate). But this girl, what gives her the right to take food from me, and then glare at me like I stole her boyfriend? I'm not exactly friends with her, but I don't think I'll ever be after this, I don't even know what her problem is. Lucy was full-on "SLAP HER, SLAP A BITCH!" in Jap but as if I'd do that.

  As for subject selections, I really hope our Modern History class can work out. Then we can have the coolest class in 20 years and everyone else would be stuck doing equations and trigonometry. And no, i didn't do any work yesterday, I didn't do any(not even printing my resume) today either. Hope tomorrow would be better. I'm going jobhunting with Lucy and hope we both get employed and start earning munnehs.