LDR

  So my friend fell out of a long-distance relationship today. I never actually knew they were in one, so it was abit hard to handle all at once. I wanted to tell them how stupid they are for trusting the internet in the first place. To me LDRs are stupid. They're super awesome... IF THEY WORK OUT like it did with another friend. But otherwise they suck ballz.

  Do I even need to go deeper into this? Firstly, the interwebz is full of crap. Secondly, you don't know anything about them in real life and what if they're cheating on you you'll never know. Finally, just the general untrustworthiness of it all. They say distance strengthens friendships, not relationships i tell ya.

  I found out something awesome about a person today. Their awesomeness now has doubles, tripled, even. It's such an awesome thing! Steam bonding!

Severe

  So I didn't end up going to school today. I first thought this queasy feeling in my stomach had just been me wanting to sleep in, turns out, life is worse than expected.

  Guess what I got diagnosed with today? Something so damn embarrassing you can't go see the doctor to get it examined? No it's not an STI, what is it? Yes! Bingo! Those who guessed Hemorrhoids had been correct!! I'm now a stage one (maybe even two?!) Hemorrhoid patient. You think I had it bad when I had Pityriasis Rosea? This is way worse and I hope it'll go away with my now hi-fibre diet and newfound fear of bathrooms. If you don't know what the H-word is, please don't Google it! Don't want to be shocked with embarrassing images now.

  TBH I really don't want to go to school tomorrow.

Gaming

  Realm of the Mad God- what Larina and I spent our entire weekend doing like the losers we are. Both my LVL20 Awesomely Expensively equipped Priest and Wizard died (there's not respawning in the game) and so that basically meant my entire weekend had been wasted. Also bought Saints Row 2 with her so yeah, now I know what Imma do next weekend lol.

Void

  OMGWTFBBQ I choked on water and thought I was gonna die just then lol.

  I apologise for my previous uber-emo suicidal-letter-like post, I wasn't feeling very well. Not well at all actually. Barfing my eyes out didn't feel too good and I swear I felt my snot block my breathing and I thought I'm gonna suffocate.

  If you are SOSing, and you only have enough strength to contact one single person, who's the first person you'd call? During that incident for odd reasons I only had one single person in mind. It was really scary because half of the people on that contact list of mine cannot be trusted and wore creepy masks to disguise their hideous selves. Larina had been on Skype with me and she didn't know what to do, sorry my wuv I got you so hyperventilated and probably ruined your sleep :(

  So anyway, it's funny how trust comes into all of this, and that moment I did only trust one single person whom I guaranteed will pick up immediately and would somehow solve the problem. I don't usually call unless it's an emergency so it was also awkward for me.

  So had the problem been solved? Not completely. People whom don't deserve to exist anymore than I thought I did still roamed about freely on Earth. But the fact that I'm not wasting tears over such a stupid matter or that I'm not resorting to desperate, uber-mean methods is always a start

  Does that make sense?

  Dear readers from around the world, have you ever had problems with dogs of the female variety?

Exclusion

Feels like a shotgun to the head, only I haven't exactly experienced a shotgun to the head, but it looks like it'll hurt... alot.

Cliffhangers and how to Assume

  Reading manga (instead of studying) again and left myself cliffhanger'd. So damn upsetting. Larina got to have a decent conversation with this youtuber she admired and they added her on steam, I wish one day I can have the guts to talk to those gamers I admired. Back on the topic, people who assume...

  Step One, assume, obviously. I had to deal with assuming my whole life. Bitchdad ASSUMING I'd be fine with being disowned when he got re-married. Grandparents ASSUMING I'd be fine with being given out like money to my mum. People ASSUMING this blog is about them. Assuming is like telling yourself something has happened, when 90% of the time it hasn't.

  Step Two, accuse. You've got your reasons, time to suss that person out. Send them a troll formspring question, maybe. And hurt their guts out, you know what I mean.

  Step Three, there is no step three. You'll probably be in jail then. Everytime you assume something relating to someone that someone dies alittle bit on the inside. When they die because of you you'll be a murderer, and you'll go to jail (American spelling ftw).

  OKAY SORRY NO MORE TIME FOR ME TO STUDY.

Imperfection

Severe acne, check. Plagued Teeth, check. Fat n Flab, check. Horrible eyesight, check. Most likely waxy ears, check. Hate my body, hate life.

That feeling when...

  First things first, I think I completely screwed up English advanced. Not because the questions were hard but I ran out of time due to so many mishaps in between (pen ink ran out... whiteout being stupid then subsequently ran out... etc). Although at least I do feel relieved after walking out. You can't exactly study for something like English, it's common sense and what you already know and how you utilise it, sucks.

  Secondly I went abit crazy on Ebay again. On a whim I bought meself a white ukulele. Those cheap ones just in case I break it (highly likely) while attempting to play. I bought it because I want to sing. Also alot of winter accessories because they're a dollar in Hong Kong, whoo for cheap asian stuffz.

  Thirdly, I haven't started my double Histories. Luckily you don't exactly STUDY STUDY for that either, hope I can make notes on time. I feel slightly uncomfortable with the two so far. But why aren't I studying if this 'I'm screwed' feeling is plaguing me?

  Lastly, and actually on topic, I don't want people reading this blog to assume anything. I write, I vent, I be abstract and subtle. Sometimes a bunch of emotions materialize into one imaginary character. What if the whole blog was a big fat lie and people believed in it this whole time?

Gossiping

  It's something we all do involuntarily, some of us, against our will or consciousness.

  So I got to participate in a bitching session recently, forealz not assumed or framed this time, about a girl who I thought was my friend and I really liked her and I still do.

  The thing is, I am very uncomfortable throughout the whole conversation while everyone else chattered on like it was a casual talk. I don't think this kind of girly conversation suit me, I'd rather bust some heads in a first person shooter. It makes me very sad when friends turn on eachother and do all this backstabbing *dramatic tears*. OH GOSH I SOUND SO PRETENTIOUS, but hey, it's true. Girls should all like, play cod and rid of their troubles in a 1v1 match. Doesn't this secret telling tire us all? I remember how my stepdad now solves things between us, he invites me to MW2 and let me pwn him so we all feel better.

  What else? I got to central super early today by pure fluke my bus arrived way too early for dis peak hour thing. I have matching scarves with whatshisface and it's awkward. I also have to get up super early 6am tomorrow for the first time and I hope I can continue this schedule for the following Wednesdays. I drew a meme on the back of my folder, it looks cool.