New Life, New Goals

I have compiled a list of resolutions because I'm at loss of what to do after HSC. 

In no particular order:

1. Lose weight, take reset program, work out everyday.

2. Start going to church every Sunday

3. Volunteer with mum for local charity

4. Get back in-the-know with Steam group

5. Finish some notes for selling, get clearance forms/everything signed

6. Help mum with USANA work

7. GET A JOB

8. Compile shopping list (makeup, accessories, gadgets...etc)

9. Organise sleepover/High Tea/Outings

10. Bento delivery for Jessy at library

11. Cook for Alicemummy

Post HSC Fails

I think I did alright for Ext 1, but the rest of my days had been filled with lots and lots of fails.

1. Met up with mum to eat at Chef's Gallery, we accidentally ordered too much and I'm still bloated and fat.

2. Bought more Superdry T-shirts (I own like 6 now OTL), accidentally left shopping bag at Happylemon and had to run all the way back to grab it. Luckily nobody took it.

3. Ran for IMAX because we were about to miss the movie, spilt half of my drinks midway.

4. Finally got home, opened steam, accidentally started converting GMod and now the program is literally frozen for an hour.

So yeah, sigh. Ah well, I'm kinda bored now.

Review for Gravity 3D up soon (hopefully)

AMU

It's not that hard to just shut up and not say anything.

It's not that hard to not make up lies in order to justify certain inconsistencies.

It's not that hard to pretend to support one's path to redemption.

I take full responsibility for screwing up the most important time period in my life.

I get slapped in the face everyday by my own incompetence and regret.

So that's enough, really, I don't understand how you're helping or making things worse in any way.

There's no point to your actions.

And you thought there was an agenda behind all of this.

Sorry sir, I am not intelligent enough to have hidden motives.

Paranoia can be a good thing

Just realised this, so I take everything back, I don't wanna jinx myself and regret 5ever.

;A;

We have gone back

And I'm awfully glad that we did, it brings a stupid smile to my face everytime I think about it.

I miss the pre-HSC days when we'd actually have fun and mess around.

It's like we're PREPARING for the coming days of post-HSC relaxation, to fall back into our old phase of chitchatting everyday regardless of who starts the conversation.

And this little infatuation will also inevitably reach an end, I foresee it in the not-so-distant future.

One word to describe my HSC experience was... procrastination and regret. I realised that you can't learn everything last minute, the economics exam was a perfect example of not being prepared while Modern was just a stroke of Godsend luck. Chinese curbed my cockiness and I'm praying all day that extension 1 wouldn't turn out disastrous.

I'm also starting my diet plan early, because less than a month is just not good enough.

[REVIEW] Fictionpress

  Modern is over! So I finally have the time to put this blog together. Since I gave my Steam account away I spent the majority of my time reading Romance fictions on Fictionpress. I've pretty much read all the most popular ones, but I do not plan on reviewing all of them because I had problems with many. What I will do however is list the ones I did take a liking to, link them, and write abit about them.

  I can't include the apparently super duper good ones because the authors removed their stories due to other people plagiarising their work (lolsrsly they're not making a profit who cares why so obnoxious see now you miss out on more publicity). Also, these stories are all HET because I'm not into this whole slash business.

Pigothy's Fictionpress Recommendations
Part One. In no particular order

'So Much To Learn' by star123
Probably the most popular story on my list. It's about a girl who pressures her brother's best friend to teach her how to 'put out' for guys. star123 is a great author, and I thoroughly enjoyed all of her works. Plus she's Aussie, so I understood many of her terms. My favourite thing about this story is its imperfect narrative voice, the main character can be such an ass sometimes. Character relationships are also well thought out, just the right amount of smut. All in all, a very nicely written story with no loose ends.

'Hiring a Hooligan' by Deena
How I love this story, Dpz loved it as well. A capital C for Characterisation. You'd think all nerdy girls in stories become hot once you take their glasses off, not Jane. Her personality is so wacky and goofy I have grown to love her. How about the main guy? A thug who looks like an Irish schoolboy? What? Let's add a delinquent cougar grandmother and gay Indian friend to the mix. The story is also filled with maths and science puns and jokes, the author obviously did their research.

'Avery Susan Sanders is Not An Ass' by Justice Bana
This story puts a twist on a poor girl in rich school cliche, because the main character drifts from one guy to another. I'm not sure exactly where it excels at, because it's just a well-rounded piece that kept me hooked. The characters are very endearing and there's alot of drama. The whole ASS thing is a recurring joke which makes me laugh every time anyway.

'The Inexplicable State of Being There' by big.breaks.and.laryngytis
The best he-said, she-said story I've read so far. Don't let the summary fool you into thinking it's some crappy teenage novel. I really like how the whole 'watching eachother undress' thing ties the main characters together in a weird relationship. The story progression is well-paced and the ending was satisfying. It's often hard to work with this kind of format, but the author did very well.

'The Broken Road' by MandyHubbard
The only historical fiction on my list, the author also had one of her stories published. I like how the main character is blind, and so the author uses alot of auditory, olfactory and sensory imagery to illustrate her feelings. The setting of a 19th century England did feel genuine, but the escalated drama within the story reminded me that this is just another story. Smut was decent and subtle enough, but the main girl seems too innocent for that kind of stuff.

'Sabotage' by Mardy Bum
Before I go on with the story, I have to give a big (Y) to the author. She's so freaking cynical and 'I don't give a crap about what you think', her notes are incredibly entertaining to read. Sabotage is a dark, Revenge-esque story revolving around the 7 Deadly Sins. Not unique you ask? Wait till you submerge yourself into the twisted relationship between heroine and her love interest (it took me a LONG while to realise he's the main male lead). I was so hooked I read this story in a day. There are some inconsistencies with the language and sometimes character names but it gave the story an air of home-brewed authenticity. The author more than makes up for it with her awesome writing skills, metaphors and motifs and all that.

'100 Love Letters' by Aurette
A unique story about a girl writing letters to her future husband and then she meets a hot singer. I'm really conflicted over this story, because I was so hooked but the ending was really unsatisfying. It's one of those books when the author dangles a bait before you but just as you're about to take it they throw it far away. It became more and more painful to read on because I'm pretty much screaming "JUST GET TOGETHER PLS". So if you like cliffhangers, and lots of drama, this story is great. Check out the author's other stuff!

'From Beginning To End' by HeadAboveTheWater
SO. MUCH. DRAMA! What started off as an innocent high school friendship story spiraled out of control with pregnancy, lies, fame and the whole bagful of other feels. Poor Crystal and Jake, so many obstacles stood in the way of their union, but I guess that's what makes the ending so freaking satisfying. There's a sequel up too! Some grammatical mistakes here and there, but nothing that makes me squirm uncomfortably.

Happy reading! More to come as I venture into the less-known stories on the site.

Post-HSC Games Shopping List

For motivation!
For PC:
How about a new gaming laptop to go with this so I can run games I already own but couldn't play
Skyrim DLCs
Hearthstone
Final Fantasy XIV ARR
Borderlands 2
Scribblenauts Unlimited
The Wolf Among Us
CS: GO / Half Life (to go with G-Mod)
Payday 2
And shitloads of Dota 2 Items I missed out while being away (DONATIONS ANYONE)

For PS3:
Gotta actually plug it in again and install updates for fifty hours
Beyond: Two Souls
Saints Row IV
DmC
Sleeping Dogs
Mirror's Edge (or just steal back the one I gave T.I)
LBP 2

In conclusion: GOODBYE SOCIAL LIFE

Up At 3AM, Not Tired, Just Regretful

I haven't blogged in a while, mostly because I'm too ashamed to talk about my past few days.

Yep, you guessed it, I've done nothing, of note anyway. I started a Wattpad story, but it's having a hard time upholding ground among all the cheesy One Direction fanfiction written by thirteen year olds, I didn't think the population of that site would be so... tweeny. So I guess that's a bust.

I have no idea what's wrong with me recently. Why couldn't I study for even an hour? I could do other productive things, but not study. 2 days till HSC, where's my wakeup call? Oh wait, it was an hour before this post was written.

I was watching The World's Strictest Parents, and some of them were Asian, looking at their lifestyles and how they strive to work hard to not bring shame to the family didn't come to me as comical. Though my parents aren't strict at all, suddenly I feel like my laziness and lack of motivation IS indeed bringing shame to my family. They can't show me off to their friends, there's nothing they can show off about. That I go Sydney Girls? Not really considering I'm bringing shame to my school as well. Some people I know put me in a bubble, but I'm a crap representation of what my school is. Rents would tell me "We'll just wait for your end results" and I'd tell them "WELL JUST LOOK AT MY END ATAR THEN" but now I feel afraid, because I don't want to imagine their faces when I come home with an asterisk or something.

 It's saddening because I'm not sure if 2 days are enough to make up for the entire year that I've lost. I've always thought, oh I have until Trials, oh I have until HSC. Oh look, HSC is fast approaching, what have you done Selena? Where's all that hard-working-ness you've imagined you'd be the entirety of year 12 back in the day? Why are you swearing more than before? Are you straying away from Jesus? Why can't you even cram TWO DAYS before your exam? What are you doing with your life? Where did all that time go?

Another good way of looking at things is deciding whether or not I'm good enough for you, and welp, I'm not at all. I feel guilty every time I talk to your excellence, and I don't want my ATAR to disappoint anyone. You told me to just make the best out of my time, and fortunately I am doing work a teeny bit by a tiny bit. But it's so hard to get into hardwork 12hrs a day from none at all, you know? I can barely concentrate.

I hope this post can also bring epiphany to my fellow procrastinators and "I'll do it tomorrow"zers. Please, just do it. Force yourself to do it. Regret will come and it won't be pretty. And to those people already studying hard... Good on you! I am so proud of you! You'll all be doctors and lawyers!

Of Makeup, Selfies and Panic Mode

So I've been mundanely practising... you heard me... doing makeup everyday. Usually before shower because I really want to be able to apply eyeliner with a steady hand and figure out the right colour palettes and stuff before being able to use it in the long term. Onto a quick MAC review rant... My liquid pen smudges alot but I guess that's what you get for having hidden eyelids ;A; The pencil one is very difficult to remove (won't go on my waterline but I don't even know where my waterline is so yeah) and the mascara is pretty awesome. I tried on my new Guerlian lipstick today and whoaa that colour is so pretty even though it looked ugly as fk as a stick. I really want to be able to pull off this 'red lipstick' thing but we shall see xD

This girl in my grade is really good at selfies, so I asked HOW U DO DIS and  recommended me some apps. I tried this one out today and whoa the lighting is so much better than the regular camera. So I got bored and took heaps after I got home today and Eru asked if it was me in my dp and I'm like *embarassed* >_>. Yay I can totally be a uzzlang when I grow up if HSC don't go well.

Speaking of HSC... 10 days till HSC... what am I doing with my life? Nothing I tell ya! Nothing! KJFNKJDSFNKJSDFNKJDSFNKJDSFNKJSDFNKDFN AHEME FJAFHDSJF dSKJFNksdjf.

Also I got Ask.fm: http://ask.fm/pigothy

Music

Yes I finally figured out how to put music on my blog! And no it won't be on Autoplay because I'm not that obnoxious and repulsive. But if you're ever poking about on my Blog, feel free to give that 'PLAY' button a try and enjoy some of my favourite songs over the years :)

My iPod has a strange mix between Kpop, Jpop, Cpop and ofc mainstream pop. It has alot of electro house (namely A>N), vocaloid and anime themes. I also have some troll-meme songs like Puddi and Nyan Cat, along with some great covers. This playlist is pretty much my iPod in a nutshell.

Now obligatory Cheondung picture, it has been a long time.