I don't find myself pretty or hot, whatever other people call eachother. When someone tells me how beautiful I look in a photo or something rather, I thank them, but I won't believe them. After all you call other people pretty to suck up or to act nice. Nor do I like people who call themselves ugly in a photo so others can compliment them.
I find comments like 'Everything's going to be okay' demeaning. No, everything is not going to be okay. You and I both know this. I thank you for bothering to comfort me, but sometimes stuff like this just don't make the cut.
I am indeed quite innocent when it comes to terms of growing up. I don't disrespect those who are not. It's not something to boast about, but not something to be ashamed of either. I plan on remaining whatever kind of person I am right now.
If I hit you, it means I love you, as simple as that. Insults mean the opposite and this overused cliche works on me most of the time. I'm not mean, you're just not someone I find the time and effort to be 'nice' to. Being nice can be hard, I will never purposefully say or do anything meaning to hurt you. I don't hate anyone either, I will never hate anyone, it's how my logic works. If you're a friend, you know me and you don't mind me. I love you more than ever for that.
I hate being blamed for something I didn't do. I don't know how many times I have to emphasise this but I really need to do so. Lately this has been happening to me alot and for the smallest things too. Today I kind of wanted to slap someone because it happened again. I have feelings too, someone else probably did it and that awkward look on my face means get the fuck off my back bitch. Herpe said if someone wants to pick on you they will purposefully find shit to talk about you, damn I never realised how right she always is.
If one day I can be completely honest with everyone, they won't be happy with what I have to say. For now I can only say that the person I talk about in Blogger often is probably you. For now you should become aware that just because Selena doesn't tell you how she really feels about things eventually all that pent-up anger within her will pop and by then you'll have nowhere to run. I find this 'being open' thing bullshit now; yes I do say what's on my mind to other people's faces, but sometimes I have alot of things in my head I hid from you. Beware.
