Sunday, June 26, 2011

Dramas ain't got Nothin' on Me

  To make myself feel better after watching a bittersweet drama, I decided to write this blog targeting cliche idol-dramas. I believe if all plots seem the same I am perfectly able to direct a drama myself.

Step 1: Find two hot guy actors and two hot chick actresses
  A drama is always filled with people(who can't really act and literally 'sell their looks', they can learn as they go can't they. ) who looks nice. Preferably a singer or model. They'll get judged for what they wear and what their face looks like not acting. Majority of my will-be audiences are teenage fangirls. Make sure the guys all wear suits and the chicks all cake their face with make-up(a 'natural' look for the main chick).

Step 2: Everyday Character Background
  A plain, poor chick. A really hot and rich main guy who can be a dick sometimes. A really hot but not as rich nice guy. A pretty rich but bitchy chick. A really cool family for the main chick(or no family at all, all died in car accident). A broken rapist family for the bitchy chick. And a 'you-must-marry-duh-rich-chick' dad(his mum died) for the hot but dicky guy. The random secretary who works for the main guy(or butler if he's at school). Alot of equally as rich and dicky friends for the main guy. A naive best friend of the main chick who ends up falling for one of the guy's dicky friends.

Step 3: Storyline
  So this chick meets this really rich hot I-have-fangirls-all-over-the-world guy right and she's like "OMAIGAWD I'm like the only chick in the world who doesn't realise how friggin hot this guy is so I for some reason will piss him off and make enemies with him."

  She then gets pushed around by the guy's dicky friends and for some reason they guy sees the girl's inner beauty and decides that he loves him. He forces her to kiss him and she falls for him stockholm syndrome or some shit idk.  She meets this really nice guy and for some reason although the main guy is a complete dickhead and the nice guy is just really nice like a nice guy is she still goes for the bad boy.

  Then the main guy takes her to his dad but he's like NUU you must marry this other chick who's much more beautiful. Turns out the other chick is a total bitch, and wants the guy for his money. And she hits and frames the poor main chick(whom always ends up being rescued by either the baddie or the nice guy; the bad guy always gets their first though, even if he ran and the nice guy had a sports car).

  The main guy's dad is still being a doofus(the controlling CEO type), so for some reason their love breaks apart. The nice guy tries to win her over but her heart forever belongs to the dicky guy. And the dicky guy is now going out with the bitchy girl and is overseas somewhere.

  The main girl gets hit by a car/gets cancer and the guy runs over and realise their love is so err... lovey all this time and they make up. But for some reason one or the other loses their memory. Then the rich dicky guy loses all his money. After all this tragedy the main chick and dicky guy make up, the bitchy chick is dumped and the nice guy becomes gay and/or turns out to be the main girl's relative.

  And then SOMEONE ALWAYS DIES!

  The end.

Wednesday, June 22, 2011

You(are Screwing with my Head)

You hardly consider me as a friend,
You don't really care about what's going on with me.
You never finish talking from beginning to end,
You dislike my entire existence, you see.

You like it when I flatter you,
You think I would bother doing it.
You hate it when I fangirl, shouting "Not you too!"
You knew it never bothered me one bit.

You never start conversations online,
You think talking to me isn't cool.
You Talk to 'em popular girls- thinking I'm fine,
You should know that I'm not a fool.

But you see...

I've acknowledged you for who you are.
I've always been there for you.
I've made you smile when you were feeling down.
I've done everything to please you.

You don't appreciate any of it.

And yet...

Why do I still love you so?

Monday, June 20, 2011

Personal Reflections

  I don't find myself pretty or hot, whatever other people call eachother. When someone tells me how beautiful I look in a photo or something rather, I thank them, but I won't believe them. After all you call other people pretty to suck up or to act nice. Nor do I like people who call themselves ugly in a photo so others can compliment them.

  I find comments like 'Everything's going to be okay' demeaning. No, everything is not going to be okay. You and I both know this. I thank you for bothering to comfort me, but sometimes stuff like this just don't make the cut.

  I am indeed quite innocent when it comes to terms of growing up. I don't disrespect those who are not. It's not something to boast about, but not something to be ashamed of either. I plan on remaining whatever kind of person I am right now.

  If I hit you, it means I love you, as simple as that. Insults mean the opposite and this overused cliche works on me most of the time. I'm not mean, you're just not someone I find the time and effort to be 'nice' to. Being nice can be hard, I will never purposefully say or do anything meaning to hurt you. I don't hate anyone either, I will never hate anyone, it's how my logic works. If you're a friend, you know me and you don't mind me. I love you more than ever for that.

  I hate being blamed for something I didn't do. I don't know how many times I have to emphasise this but I really need to do so. Lately this has been happening to me alot and for the smallest things too. Today I kind of wanted to slap someone because it happened again. I have feelings too, someone else probably did it and that awkward look on my face means get the fuck off my back bitch. Herpe said if someone wants to pick on you they will purposefully find shit to talk about you, damn I never realised how right she always is.

  If one day I can be completely honest with everyone, they won't be happy with what I have to say. For now I can only say that the person I talk about in Blogger often is probably you. For now you should become aware that just because Selena doesn't tell you how she really feels about things eventually all that pent-up anger within her will pop and by then you'll have nowhere to run. I find this 'being open' thing bullshit now; yes I do say what's on my mind to other people's faces, but sometimes I have alot of things in my head I hid from you. Beware.

Sunday, June 19, 2011

How I came to like Gaming

  Alot of people tell me it's rare to find a chick so addicted to COD and such, so let me share my story on how I came to like all these First-Person-Shooter games and other stuff like DotA and Red Alert.

  Ok so when I was little, my mum is too occupied with work and I technically grew up with dad. He ain't gonna take my crap about pink fluffy dinosaurs so to entertain me he let me watch him play what was then the latest FPS he installed (Call of Duty 2). I was fascinated by the weapon and the missions and tried it out myself. I sucked at it but that didn't really matter because I'm like 9.

  Then I moved in with cousinypoo(forgive such immature language). Like any Asian Nerd he loves all these MMORPGS and other 'boy' games. The first game we played is this MMORPG called Fantasy Online and I even had to sacrifice my pocket money to buy credits in order to play. I did not play any FPS at all that year.

  Then it's Warcraft - Frozen Throne.  Back then being the girl I am I was like "OMGLOOK the Nightelves are so pwetty and the Soceresses in the human race is even moar pwetty wheeeee" so cousinypoo was like "I can teach you the tricks involved when playing this race" and so he did. We became obsessed with creating our own maps.

  Next in line is Red Alert. It's kinda like Warcraft but with cooler stuff(no magic though, me disappoint). Like in the Yuri race(yes back then we still played Yuri's revenge) theres this yeti dude who creates mushroom clouds on three star(I'm sure it looked like a yeti... it was probably some robot though, haven't played Yuri race in AGES).

  Soon RTS wore off and we were introduced to DotA. It's just the same as Warcraft, you ask? YOU FOOL! It's moar awesome and since we haven't played Warcraft in ages it was cool to be re-introduced to an old hobby again. We played Bloodseeker because he looks like a kitty(jks no srsly cuz he's pro if used well) and loves to bully whoever played the spirit magician dude who summons whose healing pixies you know that old beard guy.

  Then came Otakuzone and as I like to call it 'Cooling Period'. I played NO GAMES (yep you heard me) and prefer anime/dramas. Such a doof that made me >( I'm glad when I got COD 1 on my school laptop and got to play it in class(SBHS you'll be surprised to find our server on your connection list). Then came the PS3 and I let go of the PC and stuck on that.

  Nowadays unlike other dads my dad literally DRAGS me to play COD with him(oh the awkward moments when I beat him). What mum gave me for my last birthday is Black Ops and Bad Company 2. I wanna play Team Fortress 2 next :D

  That's about it, in other news I'm in love with B2ST's 'The Fact' and 'Fiction' so check 'em out.

Sunday, June 5, 2011

I'm a bad kid ):

[ ]Smoked
[x]Consumed alcohol (Wine)
[x]Slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex (cousin when we were little)
[x]Slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex (Mum?)
[x]Kissed someone of the same sex (on cheek)
[ ]Had sex
[ ]Had someone in your room other than family (my friends)
[x]Watched porn (damn you pop-up sites)
[ ]Bought porn (lost a bet...)
[ ]Tried drugs

TOTAL: 5

[x]Taken painkillers (PANADOL <3)
[x]Taken someone else's prescription/medicine (handy panadol)
[x]Lied to your parents (everyday thing?)
[x]Lied to a friend
[ ]Snuck out of the house
[x]Done something illegal (DL Music?)
[x]Felt hurt
[x]Hurt someone
[x]Wished someone to die
[ ]Seen someone die

TOTAL: 8

[x] Missed curfew
[ ] Stayed out all night
[ ] Eaten a carton of ice cream by yourself
[ ] Been to a therapist
[ ] Received a ticket
[ ] Been to rehab
[ ]Dyed your hair
[x] Been in an accident (Hit an idiot on a motorcycle)
[ ] Been to a club
[ ] Been to a bar

TOTAL: 2

[ ] Been to a wild party
[ ] Been to a Mardi Gras parade
[ ] Drank more than three alcoholic beverages in a night
[ ] Had a spring break in Florida
[ ] Sniffed anything
[ ] Wore black nail polish
[ ] Wore arm bands
[ ] Wore t-shirts with band names
[x] Listened to rap

TOTAL: 1


[x] Dressed gothic/emo
[x] Dressed girly
[x] Dressed punk
[ ] Dressed grunge
[ ] Stole something
[ ] Been too drunk to remember anything
[ ] Blacked out
[x] Fainted
[ ] Had a crush on a neighbor

TOTAL: 4

[x] Had a crush on a friend
[x] Been to a concert
[ ] Dry-humped someone
[x] Been called a slut
[x] Called someone a slut
[ ] Installed speakers in a car
[ ] Broken a mirror
[ ] Showered at someone of the opposites sex's house
[ ] Brushed your teeth with someone else's toothbrush

TOTAL: 4

[ ]Considered Ludacris your favorite rapper?
[x]Seen an R-rated movie (when I was 5 my uni cousin made me watch 'Species' with him)
[ ]Cruised the mall
[ ] Skipped school
[ ] Had surgery
[x] Had an injury(cut hand? jarred finger?)
[x] Gone to court
[ ] Walked out of a restaurant without paying/tipping
[ ] Caught something on fire
[x] Lied about your age (half price rail ticket)

TOTAL: 4

[ ]Owned/rented an apartment/house
[ ]Broke the law in the police's presence
[ ]Made out with someone who had a GF/BF
[ ]Got in trouble with the police
[x] Talked to a stranger
[ ]Hugged a stranger
[ ]Kissed a stranger
[ ]Rode in the car with a stranger
[ ]Been harassed
[x]Been verbally harassed (Don't even get me started on her)


TOTAL: 2

[x] Met face-to-face with someone you met online (Facebook)
[x] Stayed online for 5+ hours straight
[ ] Talked on the phone for more than 4 hours straight
[x] Watched TV for 5 hours straight
[x] Been to a fair (hows this a bad thing)
[x] Been called a bad influence (BFF's mum can be quite... err...)
[ ]Drank and drove
[x] Prank-called someone (Failed)
[x] Laid on a couch with someone of the opposite sex  (BMFFL)
[ ] Cheated on a test


TOTAL: 7

OVERALL: 37 points

If you have 00-10...write [I'm a goody-goody]

If you have 11-20...write [I'm still a goody-goody]

If you have 21-30...write [I'm average]

If you have 31-40...write [I'm a bad kid]

If you have 41-50...write [I'm a very bad influence]

If you have 51-60...write [I'm a horrible person]

If you have 61-70...write [I should be in jail]

If you have 71-80...write [I should be dead]

If you have 81-90...write [I got a
ticket to Hell]
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