[MAKEUP REVIEW] Part Eight

Let's get straight in this baby since my UD haul did me no good in terms of collecting stuff.

Benefit Hydra-Smooth Lip Color 6/10
I bought this with my MYER ONE reward card and only got to use it like twice before good ol' mum took it. I had my eyes on this for a while because every time I crash Barrel's workplace I'd just play with the lipsticks there and I swatched a nice orangey colour (lip-service). Turns out, when applied on your lips, this product is very, VERY sheer due to its moisturising, lip-balm like formula, The packaging is cute but very cheap-looking and it reminds me of Korean cosmetics packaging. If you want an orange lipstick definitely try the Marc Jacobs Kiss Pop collection or Etude House collection and not this one.

Marc Jacobs Kiss Pop Lipstick 8/10
I got the colour Pop Rock for my birthday and it is an orangey-red which very much reminds me of my YSL Corail Incandescent lipstick without the moisturising formula. This product also offers a more orange alternative (Crush) and a more pink alternative (wham) both which I'm definitely putting on my shopping list because the colours of Kiss Pop lipsticks are just so purdy ermahgherd. The product itself is a matte lipstick in the shape of a cute pencil-crayon. The colour payoff is amazing though it's not the smoothest formula when it comes to gliding across your lips. I actually like the pencil design of the bullet because it's very versatile and you don't have to worry about it going out of shape.

Too Faced Natural Eyes Palette 9/10

Another birthday gift (from SS <3). I was surprised at first upon receiving this palette because I already have both Chocolate Bars and I wasn't sure if I need more neutrals... then I saw the colours. There are 3 mattes, 3 satins and 3 shimmer colours great for both everyday wear and night out... Plus it's all in a convenient compact great for travel (actually bringing mine to Singapore). I love Silk Teddy and Cashmere Bunny they're so pretty and work great as bases. All colours are highly pigmented and long-lasting. Plus they gave you twice the amount for lighter shades so you don't have to go through the whole pan. This is such an underdog palette everyone should get it :D

Too Faced Semi-Sweet Chocolate Palette 8/10
I bought this product immediately when Australia finally decided to ship it only a few months late compared to good ol' Murica. I will definitely write in-depth reviews for all my palettes with swatches and all in the future. So what can I say about this product? Well first off, it is designed pretty much identical to its predecessor as they share the same packaging and even same colour layout inside! Personally I actually like the colours on this one better because it has better matte options and the tones are more yellow-hued which means it looks better on Asians! They even improved upon the old one by actually putting the colour names on the palette as opposed to a flimsy plastic sheet cover. Sadly some colours of this palette did not wow me in their pigmentation (COUGH Pink Sugar COUGH) and I was looking forward to using them sad.

Etude House Dear Girls Big Eyes Maker 7/10
Unlike the hype around the Etude House Cute Eyes maker I can hardly find any review on this product which I impulsely bought because the colours are much nicer than the former, not knowing how to use it or anything LOL. Turns out you're supposed to apply the brown end on the outer third of your eye and the gold end in the inner third... which apparently creates bigger eyes? The design is the same concept as the Cute Eyes maker as the product is inside the lid and by screwing it back on you're essentially applying the pigment on the wand. To be completely honest I've never managed to achieve the puppy eye look as advertised by this product ever, so now I just keep it in my on-the-go makeup bag as an easy eyeshadow application method. I also use the shimmery gold colour as an eye highlighter all the time because the colour looks great on Asian skin.

Trust

Trust is an interesting thing.

It's interesting because it's something that I can never get right... It can break your heart in the worst ways, yet when things don't go awry it can also make you realise how wonderful of a place the world is.

You can never accurately measure trust, because one would constantly question their own.

"Am I not trusting you enough?"
 I was watching an episode of Happy Camp and in it the hosts and guests held a panel on deciphering the female species. One of the discussion topics was "why do girls constantly ask their boyfriends if they love them". And while most men would groan and facepalm when asked this, one of the host's responses really enlightened me: "Girls are insecure, they need to be constantly reassured that they are loved. If you told her that you love her yesterday, and then today, she thinks that you may stop loving them tomorrow."

I'm an insecure person, and these insecurities often translate to doubt. Sometimes my lack of faith can blind me to those who care for me the most. When I see people I love hanging around other people, I easily become jelly. If they are hanging around X, would that mean that they'd stop hanging with me? A funny anecdote from last week, I asked him why he barely spent any time with me during Easter, he said it was because we always spend time together and he had not hung with his friends for a long time. In my insecure (and to be fair, I was PMSing) mind, that instantly translated to: He must be getting sick of me, this might be the end of our relationship. Note how I jump to conclusions so easily; perhaps it was the entire rushed-ness of this thing, or perhaps this only shows just how in lack of trust I can be. But of course, at the end of the day, when I can always expect a clingy hug, or a text telling me goodnight, these doubts are always put to a rest, and I am left to just appreciate his existence.

"Am I trusting you too much?"
At the other end of the spectrum, we are afraid of how much we trust people, because unfortunately, too much trust can often lead to something that nobody wants, and that's betrayal. While I talked about being insecure, betrayal is often what causes insecurity. And sadly, every one of us will experience this some point in our lives, and when it does, it will be painful.

This is another problem that I find myself having these past days. I find myself hurting like hell. In fact, I was hurting so much it simply stopped hurting, like I'd just tell myself that it doesn't matter any more. I had faith in a friendship, two, in fact. But nothing pains more than seeing both those go to waste, at the same time. While all of this had been a few weeks ago, I guess right now I'm finally coming out into the open about it and admitting it. I do care, and because I do I am in pain. I have mixed feelings blogging about this, too. I want them to read it, yet I'm scared of yet another confrontation and me eventually breaking down because of it.

I guess it isn't anyone's fault, because for this to happen there must be roots of discontent deep down, things we don't like about each other."If they are not building you up to God, you'd just have to let them go." Well said. Even if the misunderstanding eventually becomes cleared, things will never go back to what they were, it'll just be a peaceful closure. This has caused me too much damage for its own good, and I don't think I'd be able to ever forget, or risk getting hurt again.

I can trust
In the spirit of the Easter message, I'd like to share some of the conclusions I have on this subject. While it's impossible for us to completely trust anyone nowadays, there's one person we can always rely upon, for He will never let us down, and we will never be forsaken. Christine Caine spoke about the stone of the tomb being rolled away, not for Him to get to us, but for us to reach Him. All we have to do is make that first step and seek Him.

Trust the LORD with all your heart... and lean not on your own understanding. (Pvbs 3:5)

Peter doubted when he walked on water, but as he began to sink, Jesus reached and grabbed his hand immediately. Even if we make mistakes, as our trust in Him wavers, He is quick to catch us just as we fall. So I take my troubles to Him, for he will bear my burden and lighten my load, as he had carried that cross and rescued me from my own shortcomings.