Procrastination's a Bitch

  NUUUUUUUUUUUU I haven't started on maths at all! Thanks Nifky for helping~ I haven't done any geo either! Nor did I start catching up on drama logbook! FML x 100000000!!!!

  Aaaanyway, I swear I was so groggy on Thursday night I forgot about Civi Day, then I also forgot the next morning and as soon as I entered the bus in full, perfect uniform I was like OH SHIET I FORGOT SOMEONE KILL ME NOW. So yeah, first civi day missed in High School history, and it happened to be my favourite theme. Then everyone started asking me about it, like why I'm not in mufti, WELL YEAH WHAT DO YOU THINK, I OBVIOUSLY FORGOT!! Stop rubbing it in my face!

  So what did I do on this wasted weekend? I played Infamous and COD like a boss. Then I got stuck on both but then I realised Reo's got MW2 so it's all good. Then today I just read RAW manga, like a boss. And now I'm overexposed to yaoi and it's grossing me out, sheit, why does every manga have BL in it nowadays? How can you kids like that stuff? Now it's almost midnight, time to do homework last minute, like a boss. I read the rest of Cosplay Animal and S Kareshi Joujou, I swear the main guys there have an endless sex drive, both of them! Thank God for censorship and subtlety! But both have stupid plots.

  I miss catching the train with a friend of mine, we've been drifting apart alot recently, if we were ever close friends. Our conversations always end off awkwardly and sometimes he just stops talking like I'm not there. It bothers me. Did someone tell him shit about me? That's just too low bro. It's been happening alot, stop the bitching nao! However, everytime we do talk I treasure those 3 minutes of time, I think I remember every single conversation we had. I'm so creepy.

  I need to dl songs and DO HOMEWORK now, goodbye! A shout out to pooface, I didn't practise my patterns at all and I think I almost forgot pattern 5 now, KILL ME I DARE YOU.

  Here's some Thunder, he toys with your mind doesn't he.

Should have Noticed a Long Time ago

  And I should have blogged about it, too.

  Just as I thought everyone is awesome in life and I wuv them all as well, like WTH, give me that deserved happiness already!

  I am serious about this, but I do feel sorry for the girl that everyone seemed to hate upon because the majority of them think that hating her automatically makes them cool. Sure she may be annoying, I am annoying too and although I hate to admit alot of people hate me, but all of them, I am sure have their own reason, being cool isn't one of them. You'll be surprised on how few people can actually be considered as 'cool'. We're all losers in reality, and I just happen to be one of the extremities.

  Anyway, so today, correction, YESTERDAY I was humiliated. I will not go into detail how, but being treated like a stalkerish fangirl should give you the correct idea. I'm sorry hun, do I LOOK like I'm obsessed over you? You need to get over yourself and accept the fact that life has coincidences! I thought it was obvious I have Thunder/Oppa syndrome, but unfortunately out of the many people I nag, stalk and annoy like a fangirl everyday, you are NOT one of them! Simply because face it, you're not worth obsessing over. Whatever I thought ages before was all lies. Now guess what? You just lost your place as a good friend as well.

  The nerve of people... ANYWAY, I literally ran a whole train length today in order to sell my fundraising candy, managed to sell a few and now I have 2 packets left... what to do what to do... Buy some will you ;3;!!!?!

  And for the rant, I'll give a picture instead! it's what I wore to SMASH! this year; literally identical to last year but hey, my tie and chain doesn't get old.

10 Reasons why I'm a Loser

1. I am an Otaku. I used to be a forum moderator on a site called Otakuzone
 
2. I am a big fan of the most pointless and random things. For example, a British guy who creates parodies of an anime, Asian gamers and a minecraft griefing team.

3. I enjoy watching ancient Chinese television dramas that old people usually watch.

4. Photoshop is my life (Y)

5. I blog, nuff sed.

6. I like first-person-shooter games, and if that ain't bad enough, I also like real-time-strategy and MMORPGs. And it ain't like I'm particularly good at one or two either.

7. I spend the majority of my time on Youtube watching gaming commentary.

8. I can tell what flavor the Eclipse mint you're eating just by smelling your breath. I can also tell blindfolded what flavor I'm eating.

9. I like writing fanfiction. Link on my Blogger.

10. I go on 4chan and literally speak in internet memes.

  Even with all of the reasons stated  above, I still get bad report marks.

Short-Lived

  Since this month is so busy! Happy Birthday to Kalis, Anty, Hiro, Viv,  Squishy, Fishy, HardcoreTim, Qing, Jessica and all you other Bday people :)

  I SAW LITTLEKURIBOH AT SMASH!!! LOVE THAT GUY!!! AND YES I'M A DORK!

  A shame Smash was so tight-packed, I want it to be longer D:

[REVIEW] Ima Ai ni Yukimasu

  I never thought someone like me would ever be affected by movies, but I guess the after Koizora I was proven wrong. I don't remember flinching the slightest bit through tearjerkers like Titanic and The Notebook; but the Japanese really has their way of torturing people and making them all depressed.

  The drama this time I'll be talking about is Ima Ai ni Yukimasu. It is based on a novel, which was later adapted into a movie, then a drama. I obviously watched the drama because movies are usually rushed, I really need something to do in the holidays and I'm literally stalking the main actor.

  The plot in a (big)nutshell... A clumsy (and super hot... mmm... Narimiya Hiroki... don't watch the movie since the main guy's ugly as, same kid actor though) father with a strange chronic disease lost his wife. His kid also becomes all depressed but hey they still live happily, although shabbily together. Before his wife died she hand-painted them a picture book telling them not to fear when she leaves them for 'Planet Archive' because she will return during the rainy season of the next year, however she will have to return to Planet Archive after the rainy season is over.

  The father thinks it's ridiculous, but the son believes it and eagerly awaits for her return. When the two went out one day they found the mother sitting inside the ruins of a building. Confirmed it was her but she lost all her memories! Like all of them! The whole of the drama is basically telling us of their lives after her return(she falls for him all over again and blah blah blah, oh please I'd fall for NariHiro anyday) and we also explore some of the parents' love history.

  The tearjerker did live up to its name; I cried 3 times through the first episode and about 10 times through the last. Heaps in between as well. Damn you child! Your acting is so good it moves me!

  Unlike other dramas I didn't skip episodes to get the plot going. I remember looking everywhere on Google hoping to find a complete synopsis that includes the ending so I can find out whether the mother ended up leaving.

  I won't spoil it for you, I understand why other bloggers and reviewers didn't. The ending hit me as a surprise and the drama did a good job having an awesome ending that ain't cliche (ok... kind of cliche...) and predictable (sometimes cliches aren't necessary all predictable either).

  I felt like I just HAVE to blog about this one, it deeply touched me(that's what she said lol) and made me all warm and fuzzy inside. Unlike Koizora I'm not gonna obsess over it and get all depressed, because as I said this one's truly a masterpiece. I watched it over Veoh(had to download this program just so I can watch it); not only it's fast the quality's pretty good as well. I 100% recommend you to watch it; trust me, all that crying's worth it at the end :D

  Thanks for putting up with me over this extremely long entry, here's your reward:

  ...OOOHHH YEAH...

A new Page in my Story

  ...Anons y u so troll :(

  You're so sad you only remember sad things and not happy things.

  You only care about the past and not focus on the present, which is something you should be focusing on >(

  Can you like, stop reading all my past entries? Just because I decided that I don't wanna get a new blog and start over doesn't mean the past is up for stalkers like chu :( Why you love me so much you care so much anyway :(

  I think I will dedicate this blog to 1) Rants 2) Reviews and 3) Interesting things I have taken interest in and find interesting. No moar depressing teenage hormone outbursts :D

  So this may sound insignificant, but I hate it when something so unthreatening and little can give me a big scare. I was walking along those brick fences you have in your neighbourhood today, being all chill and awesome and you know how they have these step-things gradually getting lower? Like steps on brick fences, if you know what I mean. I was just pacing around and when I took a step WOOSH I took an actual step down, and my psychology allowed me to think that it's flat ground, not a step and I got a huge scare I screamed.

  I friggin screamed on a low brick fence because I stepped down a step about 5cm tall I never knew existed.

  It was embarrassing.

RAINBOWS

  Imagine if you were suddenly hit by some kind of positive-spiritual-ookypooky energy, and suddenly your eyes brightened and you smile and people around you look at you like a retard.

  It happened to me.  But if you read this you probably won't believe me and think I'm pretending and being a fake, well I don't care! Hear me out here! Do whatever you think is appropriate!

  I was just in front of the bathroom mirror, trying to get something off my face, minding my own business and then it hit me and alot of stuff just seemed to all enter my brain at the same time. I swear I nearly became dizzy and fainted right ther.

  I quickly went back to this blog and reviewed my past entries, I was wrong about everyone all the time! Like some sudden self-realisation just happened to occur as I read on and on. Hell I can really be mean without knowing the whole situation at times! I'm not saying I suddenly realised it's all my fault, I guess I still have that bit of pride left. I'm just saying, I did many things I regret doing this year, all because I never seem to think before I open my mouth and then the future becomes all sad.

  What happened with OZ was kinda sad; I can't believe I said those things because I was in sulking mode(everyone seems to go through that stage). What happened at camp was depressing; it was like word vomit at its worst state. Although I don't know about what some people(not putting them in a bad light here, just implying that they might have misunderstood) kept on saying how they overheard me bitching when all I talked about with my roommates was Carl's infatuation with Lucy, Nifky's old love and Kpop. What happened during a certain lunchtime was pure impulse; I ought to get a new brain replacement.

  Anyhow I believe since I regret doing those things I will here and now apologise to all whom I have unknowingly(or purposefully, I can be like that) hurt. This real 'Selena' is still hard to grasp, but I realised Selena is never made to hate others, it always makes her frustrated in the end. She's the cheerful one who will always stick by her loved ones till the very destruction of her being.

    Nothing is irreversible! I say! Unless someone you know... passed on... I hope that if you're reading this; you would kind of understand how I feel right now. Can't things just go back to how they were before? It seemed like a stupid, naive idea; but always worth a shot. I'm sure if you're sad or affected enough you'd be like "OHH you do this and that and now you think saying sorry's gonna change anything?" or "OOH you're just a fake little piece of #*$(@" or maybe a little "YEAH good thing you realised what a sorry little *@$(# you are now go kill yourself" and the likes. Well save your tongue for praising Cheondung because I just said all of that for you.

  ...I'm feeling like an Alice right now >_>

  Oh, and I really wanna play TF2 but my comp is being a poo >(! And what would be cool? Working for Machinima :D

PEACE!

Perhaps

Perhaps we all need sometime to relax and chill like cool kids.

Perhaps we can mentally apologise to eachother.

Perhaps we should clear some misunderstandings.

Perhaps we can smile at eachother again.

Perhaps we should embrace the next time we meet.

Perhaps we just should stand on neutral grounds.

Perhaps we can just realise how silly it all is, and laugh it off.

Or perhaps... no, screw perhaps.

You can't turn back time, you can only face what's in front of you, and make the best out of it.

But I'm out.

Peace.

TROLL'D

  Long story short and abridged:

  We on tinychat, link on facebook, random came in, picked on my friend, trolled, all these guys from the grade above also came in and apparently they got linked or something. Apparently they're posed by guys from the grade below. Utter confusion, friend overreacting, epic amusement, eternal mystery.

  It got kinda weird when these guys began talking about how hot some people in my grade is, totally not awkward and creepy at all. All this time they should have known that I'm a chick and guys should be nice to chicks.

  Finally got my hands on MW2 today, my COD collection is complete. GAME went on a complete insane sale and the choice was so difficult to make! Heavy rain Move compatible platinum edition for $38, R U SRS? BioShock2 for $40, WHUT? Hbt MW2 limited for $50, OH DAYUM.

  A girl like me could burst out crying in difficult situations like that.

  Also, catch me at SMASH Convention next Saturday. Peace!

Happy Things... or not

  Here are a few things I have planned for the coming holidays:

1. Buy FPS
2. COD PARTY!
3. SMASH! Convention
4. Go shopping with Nifky
5. Go eat Hotaru Sushi train again
6. Go try that sex-god ice-cream with Lily
7. Watch a good movie(or dl, you never know).

  And also, although I try to keep this entry as happy as possible sadness is inevitable... I'm moving houses ): And by the looks of it it's definitely in the Illawong area... it sucks because I'm not only far away from my beloved friends, the transport isn't convenient and I have to get up even earlier for school. I have to catch completely different train lines(Lucy... Merry... Nifky... Oppa... Anty... Tamtam...Jenni... Qing... Lydia... too many to name! ;A;), and I might even be loner-ified on the trains. I can no longer go home on my beloved 944 bus(Tamtam... Stephanie... Jeffy... Cousinypoo... ;A;) and have to change my daily schedule altogether! Not to mention organising this and that school crap... if I happen to get a job it'll be super inconvenient as well! FML!

  Apparently parents don't care if they ruin their children's lives as long as their lives become more convenient ==

Peace out.